Now before we get a move on to the Big L...we gotta start at the gateway drug, a crush. Everything has a beginning and end and you have to crush on someone looong before you love them. The crush is like the contact high; you're not a smoker but your friends are and if they're smokin loud in your vicinity you're bound to get a little buzz. After the crush, you've hopefully graduated to actually smoking (liking), cant become a love addict overnight people! You get that courage and you finally go up to your crush and say " hey you, yea you with the sexy everything!..I wanna get to know you." hahaha. Then you finally get to know that person and you're not catching contact anymore...you're smoking..you got virgin lungs but you're taking pulls like you've done it before granted its only reggie bush. The more you get to know the person the higher you get...and soon reggie wont work anymore..its time for mids and higher... This, my friends is what I call infatuation. You're on the phone 24/7 and texting all hours of the day and sending cute little smiley faces to him/her ( I think im gonna puke). But like any drug addict you want to get higheeeerr!...You've tried every weed known to mankind so hmmmm, whats next? How about a little ecstasy? That first kiss! (normal people wait a while..the first one is special) Can't have a relationship without a little bliss, that dehydrated, clammy palm I just wanna suck your face kind of feeling. You're lips touch and voila!..lol. The more it starts to happen the more you like it, fuck it you love it... that stare when the other person looks not only into you're eyes but into your soul...that chill down your spine, the hair raising at the top of your neck....whats next? I mean how far do we go from here right? Is this love? Not quite but you're not too far away. Like every addiction you gotta work your way into it...pop an E here, still smoke a little maryjane....but like every druggie you're chasing that high!.... and now you've graduated to crack/cocaine! your infatuation and inability to be without that other person is slowly turning into love....you many be "in love" but you're not "in love" that person, you havent been tested yet. A crack high as most fiends will tell you (don't know a fiend look for the 20 pound nigga carrying an atm machine on his back) now to continue..lol a crack high is very short, so you're constantly going back for more and more and more, you're in denial and you don't know that you're addicted..shit you still looking at sober people thinking you're one of them ( them single folks). This is until you've reached that plateau, you're not as high as that first pull or pop or sniff, you want to get higher....something has to happen so that that person is a part of you, coursing through your veins like the blood running through. Your heart pumps for them and theres for yours. My friend Idk what happened or what situation got you here but you're in love...you've reached the state of being....life as we know it...the top... Heroin...you cant get no higher than that..... you pull out that belt ( trust), you pull out that lighter (passion) and you put that heroin on that spoon (understanding) and wrap that belt around your arm, you take that needle and suck up as much heroin as you can and you inject it into your bloodstream (love). Now you know you're in love...they're in you, its real...you feel it as opposed to that substitute you got from crack, weed, e and coke. No matter what you do he/she has this control over you...but like most drugs there are side effects other than that feel good sensation. Its up to you how things turn out....try and kick the habit but know that it will forever be apart of you flowing through your system. Love.......and other drugs.
