In repair

Ever loved someone?....When its great you feel like nothing in your life can ever go wrong..No one can ruin your day because you've been with him/her. That's until something changes that love....He she steps out, and you give it another try but you dont take your time, you rush back into things. At first everything is great because you guys are regaining the trust you once had for one another and you love them so much you would never give up on the relationship...All this bliss is great until reality sets in and when he or she is out all you can think about is what they're doing and who they're with...They say they love you and its true...you say you trust them but you dont...because even though you've both wronged eachother you still feel the pain from the betrayal...It burns like when a bullet first touches your skin before entering but the pain lasts longer...This is what happens when you try to have your heart up and running at maximum output when its still in repair...the cracks havent been filled, the cuts haven't been sown up and the bruises are still as dark as night. You spend your nights crying, wondering if you're enough for them because nothing feels the same wondering how much you have to change about yourself before everything is ok again..wondering if you actually make them happy....because you went out and used your heart when it wasnt ready...its a patch job you did yourself although your mate gave em to you they arent put together right...because putting together a heart takes patience...the patience of both of you, you cannot put it together yourself because you gave it to them so long ago you dont remember the state it was in...All im saying is if your relationship takes a turn for the worse dont have one talk and think its ok because your mind didnt produce all the questions you wanted to have answered at the time...be patient...allow the repair time to heal once its been set in the right place and then build from there...otherwise the relationship will constantly need upkeeping that couldve been prevented had you taken the time to get rid of all the problems at once....Until then you're......In Repair